My family is crazy as hell

So I get home yesterday and I was in a good mood suprisingly. Sara cracked me up asking were we moving to South Carolina? And I was like, "HELLS NO!" She sighed in relief because her friend told her South Carolina has the highest teen pregnancy rate in the U.S.
WHAT THE FUCK?

Anyways, I sat down and my husband told me his plan is for me to be a stay at home Mom. Geez. He had it all worked out complete with, "We are selling the house and moving into an apartment."

Again, WHAT THE FUCK?

He has lost his damn mind. For reals.

For once I was not the one freaking out, he was. I told him that I am going to use my severance and unemployment and we will be fine and NO we are not selling our house and I am not going to be a stay at home Mom. I will get a damn job and that will be that!

It was nice to see him

It was nice to see my brother. Unfortunately, my husband smelled dope on him. It broke my heart. He is in Oklahoma but is doing the same ol' things.

He will probably go back to Montana.

His choice.

It is sad but he is damn near 30 years old.

Fuckers

Well, it's official.
I am being dumped.

By my job, that is.
As of March 31st, my job is closing down.

Am I scared?
Yep.
I will get a nice severance package which hopefully will tide us over until I find something else.
I PRAY I find something else and soon!!

But listen to this.
As soon as the meeting was over, the HR lady and her boss and another girl in the office all left and stayed gone almost 2 hours. Eating breakfast.

Which I think is pretty fucked up.

You tell us we are closing and then you haul ass for 2 hours. And you are fucking HR!! People have questions but all you want to do is stuff your face with pancakes.
STUPID BITCH.

Family visit

The visit with my mom and brother was pretty good, I will post more details later.

My Grandparents

Me, my Grandma and 2 sisters. I am in the tacky blue suit!

Grandpa holding Kyle (my bro) and Joseph (Nephew).

My Grandparents, Maggie and Jesse Joyce Weaver.

Grandma loved to dance and sing.

Grandpa loved to garden.

He could always beat me in checkers.

They bickered a lot but they loved each other.

The loved us grand kids and had us over every other weekend, or more.

They had a tiny house but it was filled with love.

Grandma didn't believe in drying clothes in the dryer.

We always had to help her hang clothes on the line.

She taught us to cook and loved to make us happy with food. (hmm...why am I fat? LOL!)

Grandpa loved to take us fishing with cane poles.

I sure miss them a lot.

Things can change very quickly

I talked to a friend today on Facebook who told me they are losing their home. She works in real estate and her husband drives a truck for a lumber supply company.

They are moving into an RV at her pastor's house.
I tried to encourage her tell her I am praying for her.

The thing is, when my job goes away, I am GOING to have to find a job really soon.
Or we will be in the same boat.

If I get a severance and if I find a job very soon, we will be fine and I can pay off my car.
All I can do is pray about it and hope that things work out.

But just like my friend said, "As long as we are together, it will be okay."

Still, it is scary!

Ch ch changes

I am conciously making changes in my marriage. I am not jumping down my husband's throat every time he says or does something I disagree with. I am thinking before I speak... and I am not yelling everytime I get angry.

Don't get me wrong, I am not perfect, and I do still get mad and raise my voice, but I think more about what I want to say before I just say it.

My husband is trying harder too and I tell him what I need instead of staying pissed because he doesn't KNOW what I need him to do. When I ask him, he does the things I need him to do.

I am trying to be more intimate. I try to hug and kiss my husband more. I text him throughout the day just to let him know I love him. I drive home with a smile on my face, ready to see him. I feel a sense of calmness that I have not felt in a long time.

I feel happy.