Once I hated her

There is a girl at work named Stephanie.
At one point and time I really loathed her.
She came to work here a couple of years ago.
She was a know-it-all.
She made no qualms about getting in close with the boss.
Kissing her ass.

They went on several business trips together.

At one point and time, Stephanie and I got into it.
I yelled at her and she yelled back.
We didn't really speak unless it was absolutely necessary after that.

Over the holidays, we had to work on the same customer support site.
And we started actually getting along.
She has a teen daughter and so do I.

She has talked openly about being gay.
Last week, she and I were talking about the Twilight series.
She just started reading the books.
She commented that she wished she could have a love like Edward and Bella and how she gets lonely.
I told her that everybody should have that.
She told me about her first relationship with a woman, up until then, she had only dated men.
And she told me how this woman broke her heart.

I felt really sad for her.
I know what it is like to be heartbroken. Been there, done that.
I told her my sister in law is gay and at first how nobody believed it.
But it really didn't matter to me. I think my Mother In Law really had a difficult time.
Stephanie told me her own mother was in denial and asked when she would get out of that phase.

I hope she finds someone, we do all deserve to be loved.

Texting is fun

Yes, I have finally started texting. I am lame and slow.
But I am sort of having fun with it.
I sent my husband a sexy text today.
He was driving and had to pull over!

LOL.

Get a grip

What is wrong with people?? This one chic who reads my other blogs, and is my friend on facebook can be such a beyotch.

Don't put your New Year's Resolution as "I want to be more Christ like" and then make ugly comments all the time on people's profiles.

PULEEZE just be nice or say nothing at all.

This is the same person who claims she "can't work" because her son is autistic, well hell, so is mine and I work every day.

While I believe we all are entitled to our opinions, you can state your opinion without being such a bitch all of the time. DAMN.

Do certain's peoples claws just always have to come out??

OM to the G

So I text Hubby through the day and that way if he makes me mad, nobody has to know.
He told me earlier he "didn't think about it" but he needs gas in his truck.
DUDE, he carried around the debit card for 4 days.

How in the hell do you FORGET to get gas?
WTF?

Cardiologist; little brother is moving back

Today I take Sara to the cardiologist for her irregular heartbeat. I am PMS'ing and it is one of those crybaby months so I am trying not to get too worked up. I will let y'all know what he says. Our appointment is at 2:00.

I got news that my little brother Kyle is moving down from Montana. I haven't seen him since TC was a baby.

Kyle is 10 years my junior. He is my Mom's "miracle baby" because after she had me she had her tubes tied. Whne she remarried she decied to have them untied and she had 2 miscarriages before she had him. He was so fat and sweet and I remember he used to water the yard in his diaper and it would practically sag to the ground and he would cry when we turned the water off.
He loved the outdoors and always got brown as a little Mexican. He still loves to be outside and is an avid fisherman. He lives in Montana and it is beautiful there! Plenty of places to fish.

In Kyle's teen years, my oldest sister Ginger (aka EVIL ONE) influenced Kyle a lot and he would go to her house and get high. He was in trouble as a teen but never anything serious and he managed to stay out of jail by the grace of God.

He reconnected with his Dad when he was 18 and he moved to Monahans Tx to work the oil rigs. After a long shift, he was in the truck with his crew and the driver fell asleep. The truck flipped 4 times. Kyle was asleep in the back but was thrown through the windshield which broke his face and his back.

My best friend called me because she worked the wreck. She told me Kyle may not live. They care-flighted him to Lubbock where he stayed in intensive care for weeks. He had his whole face operated on and his jaw was wired shut.

Kyle has always been tall and thin but at 6' 5" he lost down to 140 pounds and when he got out of the hospital I went to Oklahoma to help my Mom with him. He got out of the car and looked like the living dead. His pants kept falling down. His entire jaw had been broken and his teeth were all loose. He could not eat. He had a hole in his throat from the trachiotomy.

He gave my Mom hell. I went and spent $100 on juice and soft foods. All Kyle wanted to do was gripe and say he wished he could die. Oh yeah, and he wanted us to take him to his friends so he could party.

After I left, he ended up leaving my Mom's because she could not deal with him, he was an asshole! He was mad about his face (he DID look different) and he was only 18, and a very IMMATURE 18 at that. Emotionally he could not deal.

He did not follow through and do what he was supposed to do with his medical issues. He lost his workman's comp. He finally moved to Montana where he ended up going to jail, and eventually prison.

He was in prison for over 2 years and when he was released he did well for awhile but ended up back in trouble. He got out of prison earlier this year. I guess he has finally decided to grow up because he is clean and sober. He will be staying with my older brother Dean, who has lined up a job for him.

I am excited to see Kyle, it has been so long. He is a lot like me, a loud mouth but crazy and we have always gotten along really well!

OMG

Do I ever post here anymore?
I guess only when I want to bitch about my husband.

Have you ever watched that show "Hoarders"? That show is a hot mess. Can you imagine living with thousands of pounds of trash all around you?? UGH. That show makes me want to go scrub something. And you KNOW those houses stink. Ewwwww.

Things are really going good at my house. I have tried to think before I speak and hold myself accountable for my actions but I let hubs know I am not taking any shit from him neither. Some days I imagine what it would be like if I were single. But then I think I would probably have to work 2 or 3 jobs and Sara would be raising TC, and how fair is that??? So I am trying and making an effort and so is he.

Marriage is hard as hell. Hubs and I both had rocky upbringings and not the best role models when it came to relationships. We are trying but dysfunction creeps in a lot. I realize it too. So I guess that is a good thing because I want to change it.

SEX

Tomorrow my sister and her family are coming over to open gifts.
Which means I have to clean house and buy groceries (I do this every Sat or Friday anyways) and run around like crazy tomorrow morning.
They are coming over around lunchtime.

Hubs is mad because he wants sex 24/7 and mentioned getting some in the morning. I told him "How in the world am I going to get all my stuff done PLUS give it up all by 11:00?"

Besides that, I don't want to have to shower before my sister comes over.
I bathe at night.
I don't want to be all YUCKY because I had sex.
I always have to shower after sex.
Do you??
I don't think men realize that sex is really messy for us.
Sex is good, don't get me wrong, but I have other things on my mind other than f#*!*#g everyday, all day.