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Update

I have thought about closing this blog down. Things are going good for me now. I am looking for a job, still staying on track with eating right and exercising daily. I try not to get discouraged since many of my friends have had gastric and are losing weight like crazy. I know it is a journey I want to take to do this on my own.

I feel I have always been a good person, nice looking, with a good personality. But it is nice to know I am getting healthier and not because I have had surgery, but because I have worked so very hard to change everything about my life. My friend who has had surgery has had to change everything about how she eats too so she is going through a lot of the same things I am. The only difference is she has lost almost 50 pounds and I have lost 1/2 that amount. It can be disconcerting at times. I know I will get there, it will just take time.

In the meantime I am glad the kids are about to start school and I am really trying to find a job. I am ready to go back to work!

Defended

Recently I posted a Facebook status about my in laws never seeing my kids. My hubby's sister called me selfish and said that it is our fault my m.i.l. does not see the kids. Really, this girl has no clue!!!

What bugs me is I have never ever said anything to Hubby's sister about the way she lives or the things she does but she has the nerve to call me selfish. She does not even know me!

N E ways, hubby called her and I was in the tub when he was talking to her. He told her she does not have a clue how our kids have been treated, she is only hearing his Mom's side. He told her I am his partner, his wife and I deserve to be treated with respect.

I was very happy he stood up for me. I am still pissed at my sister in law but that's okay, only the people who are really here for me matter in my life!

Asshole

I had a great idea to go out to breakfast this morning and to an early movie. Well, breakfast turned into a tear fest for me. My husband felt I embarrassed him because he pointed out where he wanted to sit and I told him we had to wait to be seated. He said I was talking too lound and people were looking at him and that all I want to do is control everything and everybody.
I sat at the table before we ordered our food and I felt tears come into my eyes so I went to the bathroom.

I came back and my daughter was telling her Dad that he needed to stop being mean. Well, this pissed him off and he continued to talk about how I embarrassed him. We ordered and I ate my food in silence once it came to the table.

I was mortified.
I wanted to literally crawl underneath the table.
I was so mad I wanted to punch him in his fucking face.
For real!

We finished eating and drove to the movie place where we had to wait over 30 minutes for the movie to start. Hubs and I didn't speak the whole time.
Fucker.
I was still mad.

We went in to see Toy Story 3 and I sat by him even though I didn't want to. He whispered he was sorry but I was still not very happy.

Well, when we got home, he was all kissy kissy. I said I needed to go get gas and pick up a few things from the store. He said he would drive me.
So we went and then when we got home, he thought everything was good and that he might get some ass.
I don't think so!!

When I went on my evening walk, I was thinking about what happened this morning and it made me angry all over again! After I took a bath, I came into our room and told him how he made me feel and that I was not trying to embarrass him but he really really embarrassed me!

I am not mad anymore but I told him that next time I will leave before I get treated that way.
No, screw that, I told him I will never go out to breakfast with him ever again as long as I live!

Monster with no sleep

Ugh. My husband is not happy to be the only one getting up early. Now that I am off work I sleep a little later. I used to get up with him but now I am like, NO WAY!
The only bad thing is all of our bedrooms are on the same hallway and hubs is a light sleeper. So every little sound wakes him up and then he is pissy.
NOT FUN.

Sometimes the kids are not so careful when using the hallway bathroom and they shut the door a little too hard. Hubs gets woken up and does not go back to sleep for an hour or more and he has to wake up at 5:30 am. And we all hear about it when he gets home from work.

And he says that I am the one who can't go without sleep...whatever!

Another post where I complain

I want to bitch some more, okay????

1.My teen
Why does my teen fuss when I ask her to put up HER clothes that I folded and wipe down HER bathroom counter?? Seriously! She should have been me growing up when I had to do shit for hours and hours because my mom was a neat freak...ugh.

2. Facebook. Why are certain people such assholes on Facebook?? One girl who is a friend on FB made a comment about people changing their profile pic and fishing for compliments. Well, I like changing my pic and what the fuck is she so upset about?? Now I don't know if she directed this at me but it COULD have been directed at me but you know what I say, GET OVER IT ASSHOLE!

3. My husband
This man gripes that he never sleeps. So yesterday when he got off work, he went to sleep. So I didn't disturb him and tried to keep the kids quiet. He slept about 4 hours! When he woke up he commenced to bitching and bitching and bitching. Because he slept through his favorite show.
Are you fucking kidding me?? What would you rather do, sleep or watch tv??
SERIOUSLY.

Okay I am done!!

Things I hate

I hate mowing and being all itchy afterwards.

I hate disrespectful people, it is not all about you ASSHOLE!!

I hate it when people make comments about fat people. I am fat but I am trying to lose weight.

I hate it when people make judgments. I used to be one of those people, but I lost my job of 15 years and I had to get help with my kids' insurance. I have never asked for help, but I have never NOT worked either. I figure I have paid in for long enough so if I need a little help now, that is what it's for!!

I hate pimples. For some reason I am getting them a lot now ..WHAT THE HELL???

I hate when people feel others owe them something.

I hate being lied to.
I hate being avoided when I have done nothing wrong.

I hate being hurt.

What do you hate??