Thursday, January 28, 2010

Update on Mom

Last night I got home after I got McD's for the family for dinner. Sara had tutoring til' almost 5 and I just figured it would be easier. I accidentally forgot to have them remove the tomato/onion from hubby's burger and he had a big fit about it. He went on and on and I told him I was sorry, I just have a lot on my mind but he really needed to just get over it already! It is a freaking hamburger, shut up!


I was really stressed out about the situation with my Mom and she called me yesterday while I was at lunch but I chose to not answer my phone. I just didn't want to hear her bashing my stepdad and taking zero responsibility for her actions.

You made your damn bed, now lie in it!!
If she ends up single then it is by her own actions.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


OMG, so I love the show intervention. Did anybody catch the one with Vinnie? That is my mom and younger brother ROBBY to a tee !!

My brother was in Job Core and my Mom drove him back and forth every weekend...bought his cigarettes, and took care of him financially for 6 months. Then he didn't even finish and moved in with my nut job sister Ginger instead.


My Mom was still supplying him money, a cell phone and when Ginger left, my Mom was over there buying him food. He had a job at Burger King, which he quit and he just got evicted.

Now my other brother Kyle is over there as well because my older bro Dean kicked him out because he is 27, getting high daily, and has not tried to find a job either. It is just a mess. And my Mom is having problems in her marriage because her husband told her to make a decision between him and my brother Robby.

She now says she is going to get a divorce. And live where? I guess she will move in with my two younger brothers and take care of them. Hell, she is 56 years old and works and neither of them do. But she is sick because she stays tied in to that damn drama all the time and is going to lose a good man over it.

She said she has been going to Al Anon but she hasn't been going consistently and she is codependant on the bullshit drama. It is really sad.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Oh yeahs

Well, I didn't get my margarita, but the hot sex thing...yep.

I am happy today!!

Monday, January 25, 2010


So we had our unemployment meeting this morning. The TX workforce came to our job to talk to us about filing, how we do it, etc...

It was almost 2 hours long.

A lot of info to take in but it gives me hope that we will be okay til' I find a new job. Hell, we will be okay regardless and I will find a job.

Right now I could use a margarita and some hot sex though.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Started out shitty, ended up funny

Oh my God. My husband pissed me off so bad today.
I wanted to punch him in his face for real.
He is such a dick, I swear.
He was mad because he wanted sex BUT we made plans with the in-laws to have lunch at their he was not getting sex right before we left. He was pissed at me and I was so mad that I didn't speak to him the whole way. Once we got there, I told him to stay away from me and he told me to not talk to him.

My reply, "No problem, asshole."

Luckily the men left after lunch to go look at guns and they even took TC. So my sis in law came and brought her girlfriend and we played Taboo. Sara was there too.

My sis in law asked did hubby still have his handcuffs?
I almost spit my drink out.
I said, "Amber, I don't think you need to ask me those questions with your Mom, my mother in law sitting right here!"
Then she busted out laughing and said, "Oh, I meant his numchucks!"

That was fricking hilarious.

Then, I had to try to get my team to guess the word "cockroach". I got them to answer the roach part, then I said, "Okay, this is another part of the word...and Amber's g/f said "COCK!"

O M G, y'all, I died laughing and almost fell out of my damn chair.
My mother in law does not talk about sex EVER.
And I am pretty sure she does not ever say the word cock either!

That was priceless.
And it put me in a great mood!

But my husband is still a jackass!

Friday, January 22, 2010


Yep, I deleted my post and hopefully nobody saw it.

I don't want to do anything stupid.
I am not going to jeopardize relationships for selfish reasons.
I know some people tell us what we want to hear for their own gain.

My husband is reaching out to his Mom, we are going to her house tomorrow.
I hope 2010 brings forth a lot of positive things including a new shiny job for me!

I still can't believe after March 31st I will be jobless.

My family is crazy as hell

So I get home yesterday and I was in a good mood suprisingly. Sara cracked me up asking were we moving to South Carolina? And I was like, "HELLS NO!" She sighed in relief because her friend told her South Carolina has the highest teen pregnancy rate in the U.S.

Anyways, I sat down and my husband told me his plan is for me to be a stay at home Mom. Geez. He had it all worked out complete with, "We are selling the house and moving into an apartment."


He has lost his damn mind. For reals.

For once I was not the one freaking out, he was. I told him that I am going to use my severance and unemployment and we will be fine and NO we are not selling our house and I am not going to be a stay at home Mom. I will get a damn job and that will be that!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

It was nice to see him

It was nice to see my brother. Unfortunately, my husband smelled dope on him. It broke my heart. He is in Oklahoma but is doing the same ol' things.
He will probably go back to Montana.
His choice.
It is sad but he is damn near 30 years old.


Well, it's official.
I am being dumped.

By my job, that is.
As of March 31st, my job is closing down.

Am I scared?
I will get a nice severance package which hopefully will tide us over until I find something else.
I PRAY I find something else and soon!!

But listen to this.
As soon as the meeting was over, the HR lady and her boss and another girl in the office all left and stayed gone almost 2 hours. Eating breakfast.

Which I think is pretty fucked up.

You tell us we are closing and then you haul ass for 2 hours. And you are fucking HR!! People have questions but all you want to do is stuff your face with pancakes.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Family visit

The visit with my mom and brother was pretty good, I will post more details later.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

My Grandparents

Me, my Grandma and 2 sisters. I am in the tacky blue suit!

Grandpa holding Kyle (my bro) and Joseph (Nephew).
My Grandparents, Maggie and Jesse Joyce Weaver.

Grandma loved to dance and sing.
Grandpa loved to garden.
He could always beat me in checkers.
They bickered a lot but they loved each other.
The loved us grand kids and had us over every other weekend, or more.
They had a tiny house but it was filled with love.
Grandma didn't believe in drying clothes in the dryer.
We always had to help her hang clothes on the line.
She taught us to cook and loved to make us happy with food. (hmm...why am I fat? LOL!)
Grandpa loved to take us fishing with cane poles.
I sure miss them a lot.

Things can change very quickly

I talked to a friend today on Facebook who told me they are losing their home. She works in real estate and her husband drives a truck for a lumber supply company.

They are moving into an RV at her pastor's house.
I tried to encourage her tell her I am praying for her.

The thing is, when my job goes away, I am GOING to have to find a job really soon.
Or we will be in the same boat.

If I get a severance and if I find a job very soon, we will be fine and I can pay off my car.
All I can do is pray about it and hope that things work out.

But just like my friend said, "As long as we are together, it will be okay."

Still, it is scary!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Ch ch changes

I am conciously making changes in my marriage. I am not jumping down my husband's throat every time he says or does something I disagree with. I am thinking before I speak... and I am not yelling everytime I get angry.

Don't get me wrong, I am not perfect, and I do still get mad and raise my voice, but I think more about what I want to say before I just say it.

My husband is trying harder too and I tell him what I need instead of staying pissed because he doesn't KNOW what I need him to do. When I ask him, he does the things I need him to do.

I am trying to be more intimate. I try to hug and kiss my husband more. I text him throughout the day just to let him know I love him. I drive home with a smile on my face, ready to see him. I feel a sense of calmness that I have not felt in a long time.

I feel happy.

Once I hated her

There is a girl at work named Stephanie.
At one point and time I really loathed her.
She came to work here a couple of years ago.
She was a know-it-all.
She made no qualms about getting in close with the boss.
Kissing her ass.

They went on several business trips together.

At one point and time, Stephanie and I got into it.
I yelled at her and she yelled back.
We didn't really speak unless it was absolutely necessary after that.

Over the holidays, we had to work on the same customer support site.
And we started actually getting along.
She has a teen daughter and so do I.

She has talked openly about being gay.
Last week, she and I were talking about the Twilight series.
She just started reading the books.
She commented that she wished she could have a love like Edward and Bella and how she gets lonely.
I told her that everybody should have that.
She told me about her first relationship with a woman, up until then, she had only dated men.
And she told me how this woman broke her heart.

I felt really sad for her.
I know what it is like to be heartbroken. Been there, done that.
I told her my sister in law is gay and at first how nobody believed it.
But it really didn't matter to me. I think my Mother In Law really had a difficult time.
Stephanie told me her own mother was in denial and asked when she would get out of that phase.

I hope she finds someone, we do all deserve to be loved.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Texting is fun

Yes, I have finally started texting. I am lame and slow.
But I am sort of having fun with it.
I sent my husband a sexy text today.
He was driving and had to pull over!


Thursday, January 7, 2010

Get a grip

What is wrong with people?? This one chic who reads my other blogs, and is my friend on facebook can be such a beyotch.

Don't put your New Year's Resolution as "I want to be more Christ like" and then make ugly comments all the time on people's profiles.

PULEEZE just be nice or say nothing at all.

This is the same person who claims she "can't work" because her son is autistic, well hell, so is mine and I work every day.

While I believe we all are entitled to our opinions, you can state your opinion without being such a bitch all of the time. DAMN.

Do certain's peoples claws just always have to come out??

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

OM to the G

So I text Hubby through the day and that way if he makes me mad, nobody has to know.
He told me earlier he "didn't think about it" but he needs gas in his truck.
DUDE, he carried around the debit card for 4 days.

How in the hell do you FORGET to get gas?